#41 – dave matthews band

tell me about these phenomena of giftedness, and what leads to those who believe in hardwork, the satisfaction of effortness, the thing that drive common people to success. The tool that put dreams and motivation to reality.

Somehow this title of dave matthews’ reminds me of the time where I went to accompany my lil sis to movies. She played sega rally, and I played daytona. I was so suck that time, that I end up being in the 40th position. Then It strikes me, I don’t wanna end up like that in my real life. But then again, so many people show up these days with lots of giftedness cells and glitters, that suited themselves as one of those high meta-chlorined jedis!

People envy these highly developed species, and so do i. My lil sis could craft lots of genuine things that I didn’t even thougt it exsist! Not just physical things, but those that’s beyond words. Like loads of hugs and kisses to my mom, demanding cries that can work darn well on my family. The family that is known for giving a hard time on their children. No-tears-save-it-for-later mentality thing.

In that case, where would I go then?! Would I be on that 40something position? For not being those highly gifted species?!

:: amie // damien rice ::

the night is coming, and no one's here in particular. this song is very beautiful, the way it fills the space of my present being and the music's harmony really have some unusual thing about it. it feels as if i'm swinging on a swing, eyes closed, and move in slow motion. absolutely dramatic yet majestic. love it!
i'm getting tired with my current job, somehow, it promised nothing, and i'm geting bored with it also. dont know where to go, got so many needs that i cant fulfull with no income at all. phew! life does cost lots of things huh!!
right now, mom, abby and my aunt are going to bandung, house feels so empty without them. i realize that sumtimes, i got so agitated with their demands, but basically just need them around. especially my lil sis. miss her already!!